>up with the sun

>ok, so i’m not up that early, but i have been getting up anywhere from 6-7 am this week. aaron calls me on skype around that time, because it’s his evening in korea. it’s been refreshing, honestly, even though i’d rather sleep till 8 or 9. but it gets my day going and then i’m tired at a decent time at night.

today i’m headed over to normal to see my grandparents and then go first-birthday-party shopping with my cousin’s wife, aunt and little addy. then i’m staying the night at emily’s. that will be fun! one of her coworkers is having us over for dinner.

i really love having a meal at someone’s house rather than eating out. it’s nice to get to know people on their own turf because they seem much more relaxed.

i have accepted the fact that i might be here for a few more months. i’m not sure how long it will be. you know how God works – as soon as you’re comfortable where you are, He moves you around again! that’s the story of my life. but i’m happy i’ve finally come to this place.

the only thing that bothers me is not having a job. we get my last paycheck in august and after that we are on a pretty tight budget. we will still be able to save and pay extra on debt. i would like to pay off this last credit card ($1200 after this month!) with the extra we’ll have from my next two paychecks. then we can really dig in to the darned student loans.

like i said before, i don’t feel led to find a job. i’m really trying to not speak out of laziness. i definitely don’t want to be lazy. but my odds are against me. i’m not going to go into a prospective employer and not tell them i’m leaving soon. they have to know why i quit my last job.

maybe i will get more involved with church. or volunteer at an animal shelter. or volunteer at a school. i don’t know. but i feel like soon the heavens will be open wide with opportunities for me, either here or in korea. i know i just need to keep praying for direction. the Lord orders the steps of the righteous.

i’m looking into some 5K races i can do over the next couple months. i’d be excited to sign up for them!

i just continue praying that God will endow aaron and me with wisdom, discernment, direction and peace. oh and love too. can’t forget that one. 😉

>a lesson in greek

>the main things i’m feeling right now about my personal situation(s) are these:

1) the pure in heart will see God. we need to think on, not of, pure things. i think the preposition “on” seems a little more permanent. (matt. 5:8; phil. 4:8)

pure (G53) “hagnos” – innocent, modest, blameless, perfect, chaste, clean
        (G2513) “katharos” – clean pure, unsoiled, in a natural sense, void of evil

we all sin. how in the world can we be blameless??

-innocent of great transgression (ps. 19:13)
-trusting in the Lord without wavering (ps. 26:1)
-doing what is righteous (ps. 15:2)
-speaking truth from the heart (ps. 15:2)
-walking according to the law of the Lord (ps. 119:1)
-making a straight way by righteousness (prov. 11:5)
-shining like stars in the universe [[becoming blameless and pure]] (phil. 2:15)
-sanctified by the God of peace (1 thess. 5:23)
-not overbearing, not quick-tempered, not given to drunkenness, not violent, not pursuing dishonest gain (titus 1:7)
-no lie being found in your mouth (rev. 14:5)

wow. i think that covers it. what beautiful and well-rounded definitions of what “blameless” is. so. i need to be/do those things to be blameless, pure, clean, etc.

2) after i’ve done everything i can, i stand.

“therefore, take up the full armor of God, that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm.” eph. 6:13

to stand firm (G2476) “histemi” – to cause to stand, to place in a balance (i love this one!), to be established, to continue, to abide, to persist, to endure.

it’s an action verb. it seems passive, as when you’re standing you’re not really moving. but this is what we do in the midst of a battle when we can’t do anything else to remedy a situation. to move it forward. but we are prepared with the armor of God to fight the good fight (1 tim. 6:12).

i love the Word of God. it’s a delightful scavenger hunt. one verse leads to another, which leads me to the back of the bible with the hebrew and greek dictionaries, which lead me to my big fat bible dictionary, which in the end all lead me back to worshiping the only One whose opinion and will matter in the end. i realize through the study of His Word that He is eternal, omnipotent, and sovereign. through Him all things are made and sustained. it keeps me on the edge of my seat, wondering with anticipation what’s around the corner.

i remember the things He’s done in the past. i remember the pit of darkness and depression from which He rescued me. amazing. absolutely amazing in every sense of the cliche word.

wow. it’s late. goodnight world.