>Growing weary.

>I feel like more often than not in the past few weeks I’ve been at the end of my rope with this separation. Let me tell you, though, that I am not looking for a  pity party or sympathy. I share this with you so I can continue to be transparent and real. Most of the time I am content with my, our, life right now. I really have no other choice unless I want to drive myself crazy with worry, anxiety and fear.

I know it’s just a little longer until everything works out for us, and it will be worth it in the end. These past fifteen months have shown my husband and I so much about our relationship and how well we communicate our feelings, fears and events in our separate lives. In no way do I feel like we’ve ended up lower than when we started. It’s been a long road, with dips along the way, but it’s been uphill and so worth it. We’ve made many sacrifices, not so we can collect accolades, but so that we can make even better decisions in the future.

I am so thankful that I can rely on God’s strength when I’m at my wit’s end. When I have no slack left, I just let it go.

I guess I thought this particular entry would be longer, but I have nothing else to say on this topic.. God is good, He takes care of us and responds to the humble, He protects our hearts and minds. If He can create the heavens and the earth then surely He can respond to my weak spirit with the strength of His grace. To say anything else is blasphemy.