>Like I’ve mentioned before, I have a hard time relaxing. Not sure why… I just know that I like to feel productive all of the time. I can picture myself actually enjoying my living room and reading, curled up with hot tea or something, but it rarely happens.
Since I’m not working a strenuous full-time job or going to college, I’ve felt unproductive a lot, like I’m not contributing to much. But I know I am, in my job, in my relationships, in my church activities. I have to tell myself that it’s okay to relax, okay to unwind, okay to just take a break.
My anxiety about being productive has definitely improved in the past few months.
I’m not sure what my fear is… I have one load of laundry that needs to be done, but I have clean work and normal clothes. Dishes are mainly done, bathroom isn’t perfect but livable. So what am I getting all bent out of shape about?
I have no idea. Maybe I’ll think about it while I’m laying around, reading and such, before work.