>Falling head over heels…

>…in love with my Savior.

It is a possibility that Aaron will not get approved to live off post. When I realized the weight of this, that I would possibly have to stay here for eight more months, my heart just sunk. It was of course, this morning, while having coffee and getting ready for work.

I thought though, that I would rather do God’s will for one day and be continually challenged than step outside of it and be comfortable for a very long time. I believe that He can get us through anything. He has a much greater plan in store for us than we could ever dream up for ourselves. I know that everything we go through is to refine and prepare us. And He blesses us in the process.

This morning in the midst of my sadness I turned hastily to Psalm 84, where it talks about spending one day in His courts rather than a thousand elsewhere. Then I read the whole psalm, just for the heck of it…

¹ How lovely is your dwelling place,
       O LORD Almighty!
 ² My soul yearns, even faints,
       for the courts of the LORD;
       my heart and my flesh cry out
       for the living God.
 ³ Even the sparrow has found a home,
       and the swallow a nest for herself,
       where she may have her young—
       a place near your altar,
       O LORD Almighty, my King and my God.
 ⁴ Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
       they are ever praising you.
       Selah
 ⁵ Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
       who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.
 ⁶ As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
       they make it a place of springs;
       the autumn rains also cover it with pools. ^[b]
 7 They go from strength to strength,
       till each appears before God in Zion.
 ⁸ Hear my prayer, O LORD God Almighty;
       listen to me, O God of Jacob.
       Selah
 ⁹ Look upon our shield, ^[c] O God;
       look with favor on your anointed one.
 ¹⁰ Better is one day in your courts
       than a thousand elsewhere;
       I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
       than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
 ¹¹ For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
       the LORD bestows favor and honor;
       no good thing does he withhold
       from those whose walk is blameless.
 ¹² O LORD Almighty,
       blessed is the man who trusts in you.

Verse 11 jumped out at me. I had just read that yesterday or the day before in my George Muller autobiography. He outlived several children and made the funeral speeches of his first and second wives. He endured hardship but was also obedient to the calling on his life and ended up caring for thousands of orphans only asking God for the finances and needs.

I am so glad He doesn’t listen to our whining when we want things. Back in June, I was really hoping I was pregnant. We aren’t trying, and don’t plan to try for quite awhile, but silly me was still hoping. I am so glad I’m not, because I couldn’t imagine going through a pregnancy right now without him and not knowing when we’d be together next, or if he’d be able to be there for the birth.

There really is a reason for everything, and I’m not about to mess up what God wants to do in order to fulfill my temporal (Muller used this word a lot) desires. Difficulty does not always come as a result of disobedience (I heard that from a speaker on 88.5 and then from Beth Moore’s lesson for tonight’s Bible study). If we live by the Spirit, we will desire the things of the Spirit (Romans 8:5). I don’t know about you, but this world has nothing for me. I would rather live by the Spirit!