>No bitter root

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Make every effort to live in peace with everyone and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord.  See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.
Hebrews 12:14-15 

I have every reason to be bitter about this whole situation. I could name off dozens of reasons about why I could be wholeheartedly disappointed.

I could get a bad taste in my mouth about the Army, especially since this is the first experience we’ve had with the “real” Army (i.e. not in training anymore).

It’s going to have to be an everyday choice. While there is peace, there is a Thief who wants to steal, kill and destroy my peace. And I’m not gonna let ‘im.

Here’s to covering my bitterness with the grace of God.

>Some fresh air

>I think the weather knew what I needed this week.. some fresh air. I’m glad that we’re getting this short wave of warmth before the cold really sets in. I love every season for its own reasons, winter included. I love picturing myself cuddled up on the couch with hot tea and a book (ha! like that ever happens :p) But it’s nice to open up the slider and window and let some fresh air in. It just has that smell, ya know?

This week has been relaxed… the most relaxed I’ve had in awhile. Still working about 35 hours total, but I’m so relieved about staying put for a little while longer. I’ve been looking into apartments in a couple different locations, and actually went to look at one today. It was decent for the price, and in a good location for everywhere I go during the week. I met the leasing agent at the building today, but she forgot a copy of the application so I’m waiting on her to email it to me. I guess now I’m having second thoughts.

I’m just taking this one as it comes. It’s not imperative for me to move to a new place to save money, but it’d be nice. With this one, we’d be saving about $1200-1500 in six months. That’s worth it, if it works out. If not, it’s not the end of the world. I wonder often if I jump ahead of myself. Hmm. Part of me says, Why would I put stress on myself to move if I don’t have to? Where did I even get this idea in the first place? Was it just out of a “need” to feel like I’m doing something, or creating stress? Because if I feel the need to create stress, that’s pretty messed up.

I’ve been sick this week with a cold or beginning of a sinus infection or something. It’s made me slow down. Last night instead of going out with my in-laws like we do most Tuesday nights (trivia at a local pizza place) I stayed home and rested. Didn’t do much of anything. I went to bed early, around nine, and got up around 7:30. It was the best night’s rest I’ve had in awhile. I felt much better this morning, and I’ve felt progressively better through the day.

I’m recognizing that with my relaxed state with getting answers to prayer is that it’s easy to become complacent. We should rely on the Lord for every ounce of grace needed to get us through the day, even in the good times. I need to remember to stay vigilant in my prayer and study life, and not just say, “Oh, I feel good today spiritually so I’m gonna let it slide.” It’s easy to do, and I know the second I surrender to my desire to “have a break”, I’ll be on my way to getting into trouble.

Throughout this whole ordeal, I guess you’d call it, I’ve never felt so strongly the presence of the Lord in my day-to-day tasks. Seriously. I feel a closeness in the car, at work, during my runs, even in getting my coffee in the morning. My mind was in the clouds, in a good way.

I have so much to thank Him for. Last week was a week of breakthroughs with the race and Korea. Interesting how it all happened within 24 hours of each other. The elation I felt this weekend was incredible! I had such a great time getting to know Regina and Karen more, and just really feeling like I’m living God’s will.

I don’t want that to end… I know there’s a reason, or multiple, that I’m here, and I don’t want to miss out on anything!