AuDHD

  • Why is it
    Why is it that as soon as I open this fucking laptop My nervous system starts to calm down My breathing starts to return to normal After an entire day of wanting to crawl out of my skin And leave this world behind My heart is still in my body, and it still hurts My … Continue reading Why is it
  • But I love my rusty tools, dammit
    Sometimes I’m worried I won’t have anything to write about, and then I realize AuDHD is not just a phase. I think by and large I’ve worked my way out of the throes of My Big Autistic Burnout. Thank God. I’m in the phase of post-burnout where I’m finessing my coping strategies (still working) and … Continue reading But I love my rusty tools, dammit
  • Staycation: a save point.
    I recently took a spring break of my own making, an entire week. This length of time is in quite stark contrast to spring break in my last job as a public school teacher. In the particular district I was working for, we never had a full week of for spring break. Most years we … Continue reading Staycation: a save point.
  • Flaky Church Girl
    In this post I reflect on my experiences as a neurodivergent individual within church settings, discussing challenges like social interactions, sensory overload, and accessibility issues. I emphasize the need for compassion and inclusivity in the church, advocating for accommodations and understanding, ultimately allowing for a renewed, self-accepting relationship with faith and community.
  • Emerging from the tsunami of burnout
    Come on, come on / Out from underneath who you were / Come on, come on now / You know that it’s time to emerge (“Emergence,” Sleep Token) Now that I’m coming out of burnout, I find that I’m bleary-eyed and ravenous. I would liken it to hibernation, but there was a lot more happening … Continue reading Emerging from the tsunami of burnout