*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. I've always been a list-maker. But imagine my glee when I was first diving into "Am I autistic?!" explorations and was so happy to make lists about everything... Here is a list of … Continue reading Things That Make Sense (Part 4)*
Author: Elizabeth
Crafting, eating, exploring, lifting, reading, traveling, writing, yoga, in alphabetical order of course.
Autistic Brownout (Part 3)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. I knew about burnout but I didn’t know about autistic burnout. And fuck, I guess that’s what this is. My whole life, I have been thinking pretty regularly, A vacation would fix this. … Continue reading Autistic Brownout (Part 3)*
Teaching while AuDHD
If I had stayed in teaching, I'm not sure how long I would have lasted, to be honest. I also may never have come to the conclusion that I am neurodivergent. Recently it dawned on me why the structure of the teaching / instructional day was so difficult for me to manage at times. On … Continue reading Teaching while AuDHD
This is Genetic (Part 2)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. I should be writing about this but I haven’t been. I’ve been doing what I guess my autistic (I want to whisper this) brain does and try to hold every detail at the … Continue reading This is Genetic (Part 2)*
Anticipatory Rejection
To be neurodivergent is to know anticipatory rejection. With enough practice, you can learn how to accurately guess when you might be made the "pariah" of the group, and guessing right can save you. Unfortunately it takes a lot of time and experience and heartache to learn this. But it can be done. All it … Continue reading Anticipatory Rejection
Self-Realization: the Onset (Part 1)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. It all started during COVID, I think. The shutdown was a balm for my soul. Some part of me hates admitting that - people died. Lots of people died. But for the first … Continue reading Self-Realization: the Onset (Part 1)*
here and gone [poem]
I did not want to bring Grief into this house. She follows me though, small bare feet pattering up the concrete stairs. I don't realize she's followed me in until later, when I find her hiding under the bed. She must be cold and lonely and hungry. I clasp her small tender hands and lift … Continue reading here and gone [poem]
my body [poem]
my body became soft, to hold what was left to hold memories my body became soft, to allow my brain to heal to accept and love my fate my body became hard, shoulders widened, thighs thick to show my strength to lift myself off the floor to lend a helping hand my body became soft, … Continue reading my body [poem]
Moments of clarity
Two months since you've been back / How have you been / And are you bored yet The weather ain't been bad / If you're into masochistic bullshit "Homesick" (Noah Kahan) In May I traveled to Maine for work. If I had my way, I would be living up there, in a cabin, way off … Continue reading Moments of clarity
Quiet mornings
There comes a time in the evening when I just want it to be the next morning. Just skip all the mundane getting-ready-for-bed habits, skip sleeping, and wake rested anticipating the day ahead. One reason I'm a "morning person" is because I absolutely love getting up right before the sun. I love watching the colors … Continue reading Quiet mornings
MPM 2.0: mercy unmasked 