If 2020 has taught me anything, it's that we humans make life so much more complicated and difficult than it needs to be. Is there anything more basic to life than waking up with the sun, eating, and observing life around us? As I write this, I'm taking advantage of (probably) seasonal spring-ish weather in … Continue reading Simple life in 2021
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Twilight as liminal space
We are approaching the longest night and shortest day of the year. I always focus on the night part. https://www.goodfon.com/wallpaper/laplandiya-finlyandiya-zima-sneg-5978.html Winter twilight produces some of the weirdest light. Night comes on fast, especially if it's a day like today where skies have been gray and heavy with frozen precipitation. At one point, there is still … Continue reading Twilight as liminal space
November 12, 2019 @ 9:13 pm
We are at a collective breaking point. There is virtually no one I talk to who isn't busy or overwhelmed or burnt out. Most people give lip service about committing to anything, except they've overcommitted to everything, seemingly. It's strange. I think we're headed towards a precipice. All of society is running and careening out … Continue reading November 12, 2019 @ 9:13 pm
Meta post
On this blog, you get a little bit of everything. Some reminiscing and retelling of memories. Some analysis of grief. Some water cooler chat - shooting the shit about teaching. Some talk of books, a little of which is actually coherent. Despite my best efforts to be "on" 95% of the time, it's just not … Continue reading Meta post
154 days
I spared a moment of generosity this week and placed my leftover candy in the main office at work. I'd been stealing "fun size" candy for days now, weeks. I had originally bought it for a meeting I had this month, thinking, "Yeah, Elizabeth, you can control yourself with candy in the room. Just three … Continue reading 154 days
Stories abound
From even before we are born, we are told stories. Maybe they're bedtime stories. Maybe they're daytime stories. Maybe they're stories told to us before a nap. But they're there. It's long been debunked that we humans are born as a "clean slate," without context, completely free to be molded by our environment. To say … Continue reading Stories abound
Coping through COVID
Every day seems like a new opportunity to observe, rework, and rewire the workings of my mind. When there is so much changing and the change doesn't seem to quit, it can feel like a daily attack to my human brain that likes to predict everything. "Taking things day by day" hits a little too … Continue reading Coping through COVID
Making amends
For a long time I was at odds with my own past. My own experiences. It's a weird place be to because there's animosity and sadness and regret, but the only person it's directed to is the person in the mirror. Or out into the void. It's very confusing. I went to a small private … Continue reading Making amends
Snap out of it
The world is at a fever pitch right now. Everything is heightened, stressed, tenuous, uncertain. Almost anything could be the straw that broke the camel's back, as it were. Everyday I resist the urge to actively look for said straw. It's tempting to fall into a feeling of hopelessness and live just for today. I've … Continue reading Snap out of it
On the edge of thirty-five
There's been a lot that's come up in recent months that I haven't expected to address right now. And lots that I have expected. On the surface, I will be reaching "advanced maternal age" when I turn 35 in April 2021, notwithstanding the fact that I don't have children over whom to be maternal. They … Continue reading On the edge of thirty-five
MPM 2.0: mercy unmasked 