This blog post is coming to you from an adorable coffee shop about half a mile from my house. "Exposure therapy" is good, and probably necessary this many years on. So here I am in public, among children and strollers and women wearing some variation of "Mama Bear" sweatshirts. Today is Mother's Day, and I … Continue reading Mother’s Day & Matriarchs
Category: healing
Staycation: a save point.
I recently took a spring break of my own making, an entire week. This length of time is in quite stark contrast to spring break in my last job as a public school teacher. In the particular district I was working for, we never had a full week of for spring break. Most years we … Continue reading Staycation: a save point.
lighter
how can you make things lighter? how (can / should / will) you remove the tethers and nails and boxes? how (can / should / will) you stretch your mind into time and space of transcendent light and hope? how can you make things brighter? how (can / should / will) you open the dusty … Continue reading lighter
Flaky Church Girl
In this post I reflect on my experiences as a neurodivergent individual within church settings, discussing challenges like social interactions, sensory overload, and accessibility issues. I emphasize the need for compassion and inclusivity in the church, advocating for accommodations and understanding, ultimately allowing for a renewed, self-accepting relationship with faith and community.
Emerging from the tsunami of burnout
Come on, come on / Out from underneath who you were / Come on, come on now / You know that it's time to emerge ("Emergence," Sleep Token) Now that I'm coming out of burnout, I find that I'm bleary-eyed and ravenous. I would liken it to hibernation, but there was a lot more happening … Continue reading Emerging from the tsunami of burnout
Meltdown: Implosion Explained (Part 5)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written August 2023. Life feels hard, every day. I wish it wasn’t. There are some days that are easier than others. But I feel like there’s always something to dread - some commitment, some phone call, something … Continue reading Meltdown: Implosion Explained (Part 5)*
Regarding the Next Big Thing
Don't tell everyone about the seeds you're planting. Let them grow without the disturbance of outside energy... There's an enormous amount of power in silence..." [Moonomens] I think there's a lot of wisdom in holding your goals close to your chest, not talking about them. It's antithetical to the Western way of life for sure, … Continue reading Regarding the Next Big Thing
here and gone [poem]
I did not want to bring Grief into this house. She follows me though, small bare feet pattering up the concrete stairs. I don't realize she's followed me in until later, when I find her hiding under the bed. She must be cold and lonely and hungry. I clasp her small tender hands and lift … Continue reading here and gone [poem]
Moments of clarity
Two months since you've been back / How have you been / And are you bored yet The weather ain't been bad / If you're into masochistic bullshit "Homesick" (Noah Kahan) In May I traveled to Maine for work. If I had my way, I would be living up there, in a cabin, way off … Continue reading Moments of clarity
Quiet mornings
There comes a time in the evening when I just want it to be the next morning. Just skip all the mundane getting-ready-for-bed habits, skip sleeping, and wake rested anticipating the day ahead. One reason I'm a "morning person" is because I absolutely love getting up right before the sun. I love watching the colors … Continue reading Quiet mornings
MPM 2.0: mercy unmasked 