how can you make things lighter? how (can / should / will) you remove the tethers and nails and boxes? how (can / should / will) you stretch your mind into time and space of transcendent light and hope? how can you make things brighter? how (can / should / will) you open the dusty … Continue reading lighter
Tag: healing
Regarding the Next Big Thing
Don't tell everyone about the seeds you're planting. Let them grow without the disturbance of outside energy... There's an enormous amount of power in silence..." [Moonomens] I think there's a lot of wisdom in holding your goals close to your chest, not talking about them. It's antithetical to the Western way of life for sure, … Continue reading Regarding the Next Big Thing
There is no fix but through
I'm here to tell you that there is no end-all be-all fix to mental illness. In some ways, as I've been taking off and discarding old layers of myself, I find even more that I need to address. It's depressing, quite literally. I only have so much time in a day, and so much energy … Continue reading There is no fix but through
New job, who dis?
It's halfway through August and I've had a lot of feelings come up. I'm not returning to the classroom as I resigned at the end of the year, but my body thinks I am. It's what we call "fake fall" on the East Coast, meaning the temps have dropped a little bit but will return … Continue reading New job, who dis?
My hysterectomy, aka beginning of a new chapter (Days 0-4)
For a couple months now I've been meticulously preparing for major surgery - hysterectomy and another excision procedure for endometriosis. As I write this I'm on day 4 post-op and I'm feeling pretty good! Let's do this! Even though I've already had a different surgery for endo four years ago, chronic pain, horrible periods, etc, … Continue reading My hysterectomy, aka beginning of a new chapter (Days 0-4)
Making peace with Mother’s Day
Earlier this week, my husband made the decision that we were not going to church today. I was totally on board with this, and very happy that I did not have to make the decision and the argument to go along with it. It's not that we hate church; it's just that the church in … Continue reading Making peace with Mother’s Day
Helping our inner child find the way
When you are a child, the eighteen years you spend as a child feels like eternity. I can't tell you how many times I thought, I can't wait until I'm out on my own. Until I can do whatever I want. When you're an adult, the years you spent as a child grow smaller and … Continue reading Helping our inner child find the way
Making amends
For a long time I was at odds with my own past. My own experiences. It's a weird place be to because there's animosity and sadness and regret, but the only person it's directed to is the person in the mirror. Or out into the void. It's very confusing. I went to a small private … Continue reading Making amends
A lighted match
Anytime I think I don't need to go so frequently to the therapist, I'm proven wrong. Every. Single. Time. Sometimes I internally measure my need for therapy by how long it takes me to start crying in a session. I get a cup of tea from the Keurig that's provided in the practice I go … Continue reading A lighted match
Breaking News: “Top Nine” Doesn’t Capture Most Important Moments
I use Instagram fairly regularly, probably with more regularity now that I have opted out of Facebook. I know, I know, Instagram is owned by Facebook blah blah blah. Everyone's been posting their "Top Nine" recently - the most liked photos in their feeds. Once again, social media panders and quite frankly takes advantage of … Continue reading Breaking News: “Top Nine” Doesn’t Capture Most Important Moments
MPM 2.0: mercy unmasked 