I recently took a spring break of my own making, an entire week. This length of time is in quite stark contrast to spring break in my last job as a public school teacher. In the particular district I was working for, we never had a full week of for spring break. Most years we … Continue reading Staycation: a save point.
Tag: late diagnosed
Emerging from the tsunami of burnout
Come on, come on / Out from underneath who you were / Come on, come on now / You know that it's time to emerge ("Emergence," Sleep Token) Now that I'm coming out of burnout, I find that I'm bleary-eyed and ravenous. I would liken it to hibernation, but there was a lot more happening … Continue reading Emerging from the tsunami of burnout
Meltdown: Implosion Explained (Part 5)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written August 2023. Life feels hard, every day. I wish it wasn’t. There are some days that are easier than others. But I feel like there’s always something to dread - some commitment, some phone call, something … Continue reading Meltdown: Implosion Explained (Part 5)*
Things That Make Sense (Part 4)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. I've always been a list-maker. But imagine my glee when I was first diving into "Am I autistic?!" explorations and was so happy to make lists about everything... Here is a list of … Continue reading Things That Make Sense (Part 4)*
Autistic Brownout (Part 3)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. I knew about burnout but I didn’t know about autistic burnout. And fuck, I guess that’s what this is. My whole life, I have been thinking pretty regularly, A vacation would fix this. … Continue reading Autistic Brownout (Part 3)*
Teaching while AuDHD
If I had stayed in teaching, I'm not sure how long I would have lasted, to be honest. I also may never have come to the conclusion that I am neurodivergent. Recently it dawned on me why the structure of the teaching / instructional day was so difficult for me to manage at times. On … Continue reading Teaching while AuDHD
This is Genetic (Part 2)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. I should be writing about this but I haven’t been. I’ve been doing what I guess my autistic (I want to whisper this) brain does and try to hold every detail at the … Continue reading This is Genetic (Part 2)*
Anticipatory Rejection
To be neurodivergent is to know anticipatory rejection. With enough practice, you can learn how to accurately guess when you might be made the "pariah" of the group, and guessing right can save you. Unfortunately it takes a lot of time and experience and heartache to learn this. But it can be done. All it … Continue reading Anticipatory Rejection
Self-Realization: the Onset (Part 1)*
*This post is part of a series of reflections written as I explored my neurodivergence prior to diagnosis. Originally written July 2023. It all started during COVID, I think. The shutdown was a balm for my soul. Some part of me hates admitting that - people died. Lots of people died. But for the first … Continue reading Self-Realization: the Onset (Part 1)*
MPM 2.0: mercy unmasked 