how can you make things lighter? how (can / should / will) you remove the tethers and nails and boxes? how (can / should / will) you stretch your mind into time and space of transcendent light and hope? how can you make things brighter? how (can / should / will) you open the dusty … Continue reading lighter
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Teaching while AuDHD
If I had stayed in teaching, I'm not sure how long I would have lasted, to be honest. I also may never have come to the conclusion that I am neurodivergent. Recently it dawned on me why the structure of the teaching / instructional day was so difficult for me to manage at times. On … Continue reading Teaching while AuDHD
Moments of clarity
Two months since you've been back / How have you been / And are you bored yet The weather ain't been bad / If you're into masochistic bullshit "Homesick" (Noah Kahan) In May I traveled to Maine for work. If I had my way, I would be living up there, in a cabin, way off … Continue reading Moments of clarity
Quiet mornings
There comes a time in the evening when I just want it to be the next morning. Just skip all the mundane getting-ready-for-bed habits, skip sleeping, and wake rested anticipating the day ahead. One reason I'm a "morning person" is because I absolutely love getting up right before the sun. I love watching the colors … Continue reading Quiet mornings
Middle of May
It's almost the middle of May How do I make time slow down? Be more present. Be more present. Be more present. Be more present. Be present.
Being alone is difficult
I know that when I feel anxious or swimming in thoughts, I need to just write them down. It's amazing the clarity that can be realized when I put my anxious thoughts to rest. Being alone is hard for me. Ironically, I'm an introvert. But I think in today's terms I'd be considered an "extroverted … Continue reading Being alone is difficult
Changing the tone of self-talk
For my whole life, I've equated what I do with who I am. As in, I have believed that my actions demonstrate the type of person I am. This means that for my whole life, I've been labeling myself. Applying dichotomies to my character, oftentimes false. If I said I'm not sure where I learned … Continue reading Changing the tone of self-talk
Recovery of the mind & being an agent of change in society at large
Recovery is hard, but recovery of the mind is even harder. Since I've found myself with quite a lot of free time, I've been thinking a lot. Often to my detriment thanks to those lovely thought spirals. But as I round the corner in recovery, now is the time to really consider and examine my … Continue reading Recovery of the mind & being an agent of change in society at large
Undoing the world
Recovery is going well. Physical recovery, that is. Yesterday I felt more human that I'd felt in a week since major surgery. I was able to go down the stairs in a normal fashion and get myself showered. All that in addition to making coffee and fixing breakfast. It's amazing how the little things make … Continue reading Undoing the world
My hysterectomy, aka beginning of a new chapter (Days 0-4)
For a couple months now I've been meticulously preparing for major surgery - hysterectomy and another excision procedure for endometriosis. As I write this I'm on day 4 post-op and I'm feeling pretty good! Let's do this! Even though I've already had a different surgery for endo four years ago, chronic pain, horrible periods, etc, … Continue reading My hysterectomy, aka beginning of a new chapter (Days 0-4)
MPM 2.0: mercy unmasked 